i’m 5’9 and my highest weight was 285.0 pounds, as of now i am obese and very unhealthy.

for the past year and a half i have tried to lose weight but i can’t stop myself. it’s a constant numbers game for me and it’s not only about severely over eating it’s about the thought process afterwards that is really not healthy.

i’ve been the chubby and tall girl my entire time, my food problems kicked into high gear around 2007 when puberty hit. At that time I knew what i was doing and i know what it was doing to me, I also started having anxiety issues. Social Phobia got worse when I switched high schools.

i’m sick of everything. i’m sick of having no friends. i’m sick of constantly tugging at my clothes, i’m sick of being by myself, i know i’m my biggest problem. 

I seclude myself from everyone because I hate the way I look.

 i’m african-american / caucasian mix,  where i’m from there is a general stigma that all black or mixed girls have to be curvy or”thick” or they are not beautiful. i think its complete bullshit, i want to be healthy, i want to be happy with myself. cause truth is, i haven’t been truly happy in a long time.

my personal posts can be found here.

contact:

getfit.2012@yahoo.com - email

myfitnesspal

formerly:

- lovelivelaughthin.tumblr.com

- skinnybitchesmakegraves.tumblr.com